CARELESS WHISPERS

my wealth...

my strength...

my life...

these are the terms i considered the most accurate description of what my friends are...

they are always there...

a shoulder to cry on..

a clown to make me laugh...

an anti-drowse medicine that make me stay sane...

a large stone ready to knock me on my head to wake me up...

a sleeping pill when i need rest...

an embrace when i need comfort...

a hug when i need love...

a penny in my pocket when im hungry...

they are there to bear everything with me, on me and for me...

they are all i ever had and have...

yet still for the fact that they are my friends, the place they occupy in my heart is FRIENDSHIP...

i have longed for someone to fill the empty space inside this blood-pumping organ of mine..., my heart..

i came to meet someone ... someone i guess who's capable of filling up the empty space in me...

I started dating him just a month ago..

I felt every friend i have is against him...

i guess they're just right.. i have known him for just a short time..

i understand.. just imagine.. i kissed a stranger in front of the cinema screen.. a stranger i knew for just a week and a half .. ONLY.. ..hahaha.. sooo bad.

i should not feel choked..

I should not feel strangled... YET I DO..

their whisper of advices, whisper of concerns has different impact on my well-being..

I feel...

i feel so wrong.

their being too sensitive.. ahhhhhhhhhhh

i just can't tell them how i really feel..

i cant...

i do appreciate their parently love yet a part of my heart and a part of my mind revolt....

"Sometimes, I just can't tell anybody how i really fee, not because i don't know why,

not because i don't know my purpose,

not because I don't trust them,

but decause I can NEVER REALLY FIND the RIGHT WORDS to MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND... "