torn apart...happily
I can't understand the way i feel...
same is true with the thing that i could never understand the he felt...
i just cant reach his ways,,, I just can't explain how things happened..
what's wrong with me then??
or is it what's wrong with him??
...
the relationship started Oct11 2008... and it ended Nov162008... it's really a short time relationship... but honestly, I have never viewed myself being with him as my partner.....
I never expected we'd last for a month.. All i think is we'll be ending it 2 weeks...
hahahaha.. but you know... happy enough... "cause i could say i have my own experience... only thing that disappoints me... is that ... my F I R S T was never given J U S T I C E ...
=)
SHOUT OUT FOR MY LOVE
I was wrong when I entrusted you my heart.
I was wrong when I've fallen in love with you..
I was wrong when I thought you're honest.
I was wrong..and I guess,that's all it is....
I WAS WRONG..
..=(
BUT
I
hope
you'll
prove,
IN THE NEAR FUTURE...
that
I was wrong
to say.....I WAS WRONG...
Self_reliance
What is self-reliance? What is confidence? Do we need to know everything about something in order for us yo posses it? Do we need to have concrete definitions in order for us to execute?Partly YES, and the other part to make it completely true and a justifiable BIG YES is experience.
Confidence is powerful. And to be powerful is to trust yourself, to believe in what you think is true and right, and voicing out what runs through your head.Speak your mind. Your latent conviction for what is right for you will be true to the universe. Have a brave heart to express, to show off ,through that, you can be heard.
Believing in yourself is self-reliance. Having the guts is self reliance. Thinking the negative way is like having termites inside that slowly rot and eventually kill you from within. Why then despise yourself? We are equal. You can do whatever they can but not in the same way because you are special, WE... are special. no one does the way we do. You have power. TRUST and BELIEVE. It's energizing your muscles to move, lubricating your joints to jerk, and fueling the fire inside your heart to accomplish something.
TRUST is one of the keywords in understanding self- reliance. It's showing what you've got, being who you are and being TRUE. Why be like others? We are created unique with distinct features. We are blessed with GOD-GIVEN talents and strenghts. Can't you trust your GOD-GIVEN presents? Can't you believe in your CREATOR-GIVEN wisdom? These strengths and weaknesses were exclusively prepared for you and you alone.And those are subject to discovery and enhancement. Denial of your abilities simply shows that you do not appreciate what's in you.
Appreciation is another ingredient for self-trust. It uplifts your confidence. It magnifies your strenghts and minimizes your weaknesses. Learning to appreciate yourself and your worth, learning to inculcate to your mind that you are important and you are playing a very significant role in the society are of your great asset.
Positive self concept comes along with the word APPRECIATION. If you know and you think you can do it, you CAN do it. If you think you can't. then it speaks of reality, YOU CAN'T. It's a matter of attracting the positive energy.
As I read Ralph Waldo Emerson's essay on Self-reliance, I came to remember my conversation with a friend when were on the library's comfort room. I asked her "Rai, how do I look?," then she answered a short but worth pondering statement, " It's how you look at yourself". I realize then that seeing things you want them to be has a great contribution to What it really look like, thus heigthened your self concept.
HAIKU............... ko nih.. haha
Religion
expression of trust
true faith, committment and love
immeasurable
Guilt
unstoppable pain
rotting myself from within
as concience fights back
Unplanned
I said I love you
still I say I love you too
I love you it's true
What If...
What if . . .
... my head is in the position of my feet? Will my head have varicose veins?
...I get pregnant early?
...I fail in my Lit 131 class?
...I die now?
...I lost all my friends?
...I cry now? Will somebody comfort me?
Will I commit suicide? Who will stop me? Who?
...What if I accidentally forget how to breathe? I burst out because of the pressure of being a teacher?.... imagine... it will only take one year and a half to become one...
What if I'm already a teacher? I'm teaching in a Japanese school with Japanese students and Japanese co teachers?? haha..
but What if I won't be employed after graduation?? What will I have for a living???
...What if I marry a drunkard? A 2-pack-of-cigarette per day smoker?...
.. What if my husband die before me??
....What if I lose control and make love with somebody in this early stage of my life? will I get pregnant?
..What if I stroll around the school having a very big belly with fetus inside?
... What if I marry someone who is unfaithful??... Why Am I thinking of these things?.. I'm just 18........!!
..What if I stop schooling? Will my life have a happy ending??
Will I have a better future?... How? In what way?? What will my family be??
... What if the person I love now doesn't really love me...?? What if I'm just imagining things to be true?
What if "I" only thinks of "us" and "he" thinks of only "him"?
What if he doesn't really care?...
The other way... What if I fail to give love back?? Will I be guilty??
What if when I go home I met an accident? Will somebody save me and rush me to the hospital?
What if I met a robber? a rapist? Will they kill me??
What if I am a prostitute? will I have many customers?
What if I make money with my Flesh? Will I generate more income rather than being a teacher?
What if I am a virgin no more? What If I'm a bitch? I go out with different guys every night and have sex with them relentlessly?...eeeeewww....
What if I enjoy having lots of boyfriends????
"what If I never knew... what if I never found 'you' "
Will my life be the same??
Will my heart still beat the it palpitate now???
What if I didn't came out from my mother's womb?? What if I wasn't conceived at all??? Will I see the beauty of the world??? Will the earth continue rotating and revolving without my presence??
What if I lost my sanity because of these what if's?
Where will I be now??
... my head is in the position of my feet? Will my head have varicose veins?
...I get pregnant early?
...I fail in my Lit 131 class?
...I die now?
...I lost all my friends?
...I cry now? Will somebody comfort me?
Will I commit suicide? Who will stop me? Who?...What if I accidentally forget how to breathe? I burst out because of the pressure of being a teacher?.... imagine... it will only take one year and a half to become one...
What if I'm already a teacher? I'm teaching in a Japanese school with Japanese students and Japanese co teachers?? haha..
but What if I won't be employed after graduation?? What will I have for a living???
...What if I marry a drunkard? A 2-pack-of-cigarette per day smoker?...
.. What if my husband die before me??
....What if I lose control and make love with somebody in this early stage of my life? will I get pregnant?
..What if I stroll around the school having a very big belly with fetus inside?
... What if I marry someone who is unfaithful??... Why Am I thinking of these things?.. I'm just 18........!!
..What if I stop schooling? Will my life have a happy ending??
Will I have a better future?... How? In what way?? What will my family be??
... What if the person I love now doesn't really love me...?? What if I'm just imagining things to be true?
What if "I" only thinks of "us" and "he" thinks of only "him"?
What if he doesn't really care?...
The other way... What if I fail to give love back?? Will I be guilty??
What if when I go home I met an accident? Will somebody save me and rush me to the hospital?
What if I met a robber? a rapist? Will they kill me??
What if I am a prostitute? will I have many customers?
What if I make money with my Flesh? Will I generate more income rather than being a teacher?
What if I am a virgin no more? What If I'm a bitch? I go out with different guys every night and have sex with them relentlessly?...eeeeewww....
What if I enjoy having lots of boyfriends????
"what If I never knew... what if I never found 'you' "
Will my life be the same??
Will my heart still beat the it palpitate now???
What if I didn't came out from my mother's womb?? What if I wasn't conceived at all??? Will I see the beauty of the world??? Will the earth continue rotating and revolving without my presence??
What if I lost my sanity because of these what if's?
Where will I be now??
Where???...
LiFe Is BeaUtiFuL
The Summary
It is a story of struggle. The story of a youthful days of a child. A boy captured in between the cruelties and unfairness of life yet still his young mind perceived everything as a game. A mere game wit prizes in the end.
Guido, Dora, and Joshua were the main characters in the movie entitled "La Vita El Bella(Life is Beautiful)". The three of them resembles a happy family.Their story as a family started when Guido accidentally met Dora, a beautiful teacher. He fell in love with with the lovely Dora. And because of Guido's incomparable and unique charm, Dora fell in love with him too to the extent that she have left her fiance and ran away. Together, they formed a family . Dora bore a child and they named the baby Joshua.They lived a happy life not until one day. When all the Jews and Jewess were sent out of the country to be slaved, Guido and Joshua are of them.
The train, where Guido and Joshua were in, was about to go when Dora arrived and insisted to go too. She opt to suffer also what her family is to suffer. They were brought to the place. They were forced to work. Men and women were separated and so as the old ones. The aged people were liquidated and so as the young one's but thanks to Joshua's stubbornness in not taking a bath, he was able to survive. Joshua didn't understand what they were going through. He tried to ask his father of going home. To deny the truth and deprive Joshua of the experience the reality that they were slaves, Guido pretended that they were just playing a game and there were rules and there was prize in the end, a real big tank with a big gun.
In the midst of their suffering an opportunity of escaping come across their way. They grabbed it. Unfortunately, Guido died.
In the end Joshua was saved. Dora survived. They continue their life without Guido.
The Characters
Guido. A happy Jew who takes everything positively. He influenced others with his luck and jolliness. He is a person to look up to. He is really loving. He loves his family very much. He risks his life for the convenience of his wife and son. He lives his life the simple way. He thinks like a child but he really is a wise man.
Dora. A respected teacher, very simple yet very beautiful inside and out. She's a very charming lady, capturing the heart of Guido from with first glance. She is a hero. She's willing to suffer and die for her family. She has sacrificed her freedom.
Joshua. the only child of Dora and Guido, a very obedient son to his father only that the parents can't force him to take a bath.He is witty and very smart.
The Cinematography
The over all cinematography was excellent. Speaks of reality from lights to sounds to artists,. The scenes were realistic. The settings were simple but really portrayed what really should be shown off. The music, sound effects and lights were arranged very well which heigthened the intensity not every scene.
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Only one line sank in my mind after watching the film. It's "ther's a rainbow always after the rain" by south border.
The T'nalak Festival
The T'nalak Festival
Multi-colored "banderitas" hanging above the streets of City of Koronadal, attractive and beautiful huts standing along the Alunan Avenue, brightly-colored bulbs thst lights the dark night of the city, smiles and happy faces that make the atmosphere warm, and the greetings of the joyful people of South Cotabato made the
9th T'nalak festival happy and gay.
The festival seemed to showcase the expertise of the people in different fields. T
alents were showcased. The bests among the bests were recognized and awarded.
It ws fun.It broght joy and laughters not only to the children of the province but also to the neighboring provinces. the events were entertaining. It satisfied the wants of the people in watching wonderful presentations from the drum corps. competition to the display of fireworks.
One of the most striking events in the Festival was the display of lovely fireworks.My eyes were amazed. Different colors and different shades of lights flashed before my very eyes.They were awesome. I was satisfied. The long wait was worth it.=)
9th T'nalak festival happy and gay.
The festival seemed to showcase the expertise of the people in different fields. T
alents were showcased. The bests among the bests were recognized and awarded.It ws fun.It broght joy and laughters not only to the children of the province but also to the neighboring provinces. the events were entertaining. It satisfied the wants of the people in watching wonderful presentations from the drum corps. competition to the display of fireworks.
One of the most striking events in the Festival was the display of lovely fireworks.My eyes were amazed. Different colors and different shades of lights flashed before my very eyes.They were awesome. I was satisfied. The long wait was worth it.=)
