Another day of hard work, another day of busy life was over.
I walk home in lonesomeness, seeing people pass by laughing. i walk in a very slow pace noticing people overtake me. 'twas a cold starless night.
I heard my phone rang. i fished the phone in my bag. Just before i could see who was calling, 'Battery Empty' was displayed on the screen of my phone and the ringing ended. I was so bothered who called.but soon after i arrived home, i figured out it was 'HIM'.
my heart has beaten differently this past few years whenever i receive messages from him. i get excited, happy, blooming and gay. I feel my blood rushing through my veins. my heart is full of something unexplainable. Complicated may this feeling seem, yet it felt good.
He is my long-admired guy.he's slender, brown-skinned, shiny-haired gorgeous 'julz'.
I have liked him ever since the day we first met. He has become my ideal/dream/right guy.
I have longed of him since the very first day we met.
we became friends, and i never thought, that's all we could ever be.
he has treated me more than a casual friend does. he calls me, and i feel he flirts at me.. that's how green i am,
interpreting simple ways of a sweet friendly man to a childish malicious gal, interpreting HIS ways to ME.
i was boosted with confidence and hopes as years pass that we still treat each other as though we're lovers.
i was a fool to think that it was like that."best friends" that's all we could ever be.
I charged my phone, a minute later my phone rang again. It was him."hello" i answered. and the conversation lasted for over 20 mins,
my hopes had rushed yet in a level of talking to a friend and not to a lover. I hesitated to talk but his voice was very inviting that i answer the usual way.
It can never be us, though he said possibility is on the way. I am losing my hope though I could still feel our intimacy.
i'm wishing this hope won't vanish until the it came the very day i ever wanted.
I was imprisoned in the thought that i and him be US. i had even told myself, "if not him, better not have any".
but i guess my heart had grown tired. yet still my little hopes lingers though it is gradually and eventually fading.
he said, goodnight and i did too. i still wear on my smile until the moment i close my eyes. . .
out nothing i said..."attract positive energy, just believe and everything will come true."
